My poem my feelings... ;'(

Lynnie Lee felt empty... ;'(

Empty

Nobody understands this emptiness i feel,

hopeless, how long will i feel this way?
mindless, what? i'm sorry what did you say
anxious, i sinned, what will happen to me today?

worthless, what do i enjoy,why am i here, i forget.
overwhelmed,how long can i live like this?
up and down,i feel sad, i feel angry,i feel regret
questions so many questions, why do i even exist

antisocial, i love you, but please leave me alone.
desperation, i've tried everything, theres nothing i can do
too late, i am getting old, i am already grown
distrust, you will let me down, you only care about you

did they ever really love me, or did i just push them away? they said they did, was it true?

I know this isnt right but i cant control this, i know this isnt healthy, but what can i do?

i feel so empty sometimes, no emotion, no sadness, no anger, no happiness. just hollow, nothing inside, void of any feeling.
Empty

Tringin nk mkn tp malas msuk dpur???

Aku tringin nk wat resepi nih! Aku jnji dgn diri aku, sblm aku habis cuti sem nih, aku mst wat resepi2 Cheese nih!

Chocolate Cheese Brownies

Bahan-bahan
180 gm butter-dicairkan
275 gm. gula perang
3 biji telur
1 sudu teh vanilla essence
120 gm. tepung naik sendiri
70 gm. serbuk koko

Cheese filling:
250 gm. cream cheese
45 gm. butter
80 gm. gula icing
1 biji telur
Sedikit chocolate chips (ditabur di atas brownies)

Cara Penyediaan:
(1) Gaul butter yang telah dicairkan dengan gula perang hingga sebati
(2) Masukkan telur, sebiji setiap kali. Gaul hingga betul-betul sebati. Masukkan sedikit vanilla essence
(3) MAsukkan tepung dan serbuk koko secara perlahan-lahan dan kacau hingga terasa lembut.
(4) Untuk cheese filling: pukul cream cheese, butter and gula icing hingga sebati. Tambahkan telur dan kemudian teruskan memukul.
(5) Tuangkan setengah drpd adunan brownie ke dalam  diikuti cheese filling.
(6) Tuangkan lebihan adunan brownie tadi di atas cheese filling. Taburkan chocolate chips di bahagian atas brownies.
(7) Bakar di dalam oven (170ºC selama 40 minit)

Cheese Cake

Bahan-bahan
2 ketul cream cheese 250gram
1 tin susu pekat manis
2 biji telur
1 sudu tepung gandum 
Cara Penyediaan


Tapak(base)
1. Biskut oreo dihancurkan
2. Satu cawan majerin yang dicairkan.. gaul sebati n tekan kat dasar loyang as tapak atau swiss roll..potong dan susun dalam loyang..

Topping
3. Biarkan cheese lembut dgn suhu bilik..kemudian pukul(leh guna mixer or blender)
4. masukkan susu..dan pukul lagi
5.dah sebati..masukkan telur sikit2..
6. masukkan tepung..
7. klu suka..leh masukkan coklat cip@ coklat rice..
8.tuangkan dalam loyang berisi biskut@kek tadi..utk hiasan boleh laa taburkan kepingan badam atau swirl kan coklat cair kat atas..
7.sedia utk di bakar...lebih kurang 45 minit..tapi cucuklaa ngan cake tester or lidi utk pastikan dia dah masak..(dah tak melekat kat lidi tu masak dahla)

creating my blog...seriously tis time

Org der blog so aku pun wat juga blog. haisssshhh!!!

actually sblm nih aku dh pnh der blog tp aku x pnh blog scra serious. aku create pun sbb kbnyakan kwn2 aku der blog. so, org blog, aku pun blog.-tp tu lah, aku bukan mcm org lein, wat apa2 skit nk keep it in-record. aku nih jnis malas dlm hal cam nih...slalu nk off-record jer. 

hmm...oleh sbb skng cuti sem, mka aku bnyk abihkn msa surf internet...aku ader lar tgok blog2 mreka yg mnawarkn mcm2 produk & pkhidmatan thru blog diorg. mmg interesting blog diorg. pndai diorg wat utk tarik prhatian customer. aku tringin nk tul nk wat sales & services thru blog nih. on9 biz kta org.-tp, amender lar yg nk aku niagakan. aku kna cri idea lar, aku rsa...yer lar, org kta, kbnyakan rezki yg der dlm dunia ni dtgnyer dr pniagaan. so, mmg aku tringin nk mniaga...-tp, mniaga apa?

http://youtu.be/rA4s3wN_vK8

so, gitulah yg aku bleh tpanggil smula utk wat blog nih. smuer sbb cam jeles tgok blog org lein yg lawa2 & creative giler & jugak sbb ttarik dgn cra mcm mna blog nih bleh carik duit. yer lah kn, aku pun dh briya delete akaun gmail lma aku, pastuh create lak yg baru...siap blaja kat youtube mcm mna cra nk blog. smuer sbb nk start fresh. 

aku hrp aku akn b'blog scara serious mulai skng...( bleh pcaya ker??? ) oklah, slmt b'blog, lynn!!! ;)